Wednesday, July 22, 2009 { 9:00 PM }


Well I got nothing to post actually, except for sorrows and pain in heart...
I swear I am not asking people for sympathy or others.
Its Just words that I don't know who shall I turn too..

Recently so many things happen.. too many till I almost give up totally...
Had really enough and I am so sick and tired of it..


Myself
Recently just recover from sudden flu and bad menses cramp and went to do ultrasound..
Found a small lump, and now taking medicine and was having a bad back cramp..
I have problems with sleeping in the night, and next morning I can't get up for school with the back pain. overall hopefully I am able to get well soon..

School work was another challenge for me, was on Mc for 2 weeks and CA2, trying to cope and project deadline is so near, rushing ;)

Social Circle
Well first I give up on trying to be nice and neutral person but to my surprise I find it no point using this on them and since they can happily just go on and why can't I happily go through alone. I don't owe them and they decide to do that to me, so be it. I believe I did my part and that's enough.

Family
Recently my grandmother isn't in the good health, She start to have difficulties in her movement and so she will pee around, I don't know what else I can do.. At night she start coughing and notice she has difficulties in breathing..

My mum was asking me to go back to my own house instead of staying at my grandparents place, but between me and my dad we are like enemy. Well if I go home, what happen to my grandmother? gosh. I don't know what shall I do..

Feeling so moody now a days, damn I am so tired and sick..

How much I hope god will just end everything and let me go somewhere where no one is there..
Peace always...

That's all ba..